Today is T-15 to my 40th Birthday and I feel like wrapping up in a blanket and ignoring everything because my allergies struck back. A trivial problem, but when you are trying to build up momentum any stumbling block can knock you back down.
One of the biggest problems we face is when we are judged for what we feel is a problem in our lives that when compared to other problems in the world seem trivial. Our problems are ours, and we have to deal with them as they face us.
Now, don't misunderstand me. I am not saying it is ok to whine about our state in life or wallow in your own misery. In fact, we have to do the exact opposite.
Whether big or small, obstacles will always crop up. Their severity is all too often dictated by our mood when we stumble upon them. If we are at a particularly low point even the smallest thing can throw us completely off our game.
What is your light?
Our light is a combination of things.
Whatever empowers you is part of your light. Whether it is music, dancing, drawing, writing, cooking, baking, knitting, it is important for you to know it and have it at hand when the time comes.
One of my biggest recharging stations is music. I love to listen to it, and even more to sing along. I don't have a good singing voice, but I don't care. I love it. As I write this, I feel lucky by Mary Chapin Carpenter came on. I am not a big Country music fan, but I love that song. I had to stop typing and just sing along. Here's the video if you want to join in.
Now that feels a lot better. I don't exclusively listen to happy go lucky music. Right now, Reptile by Creaming Jesus is on and I am singing along to it too.
Both songs work for me, but I have always been a Goth at heart. Neither of these may work for you, and that's fine. Find what works for you, and embrace it. We have to take moments to refuel or we can't complain when we inevitably run out of gas.
Light from Within
Light also comes from within us. This isn't where I tell you that you have an ineffable light deep down inside you and you have to let it shine. You do, we all do, but that isn't what I am talking about right now.
There are things you do that are uniquely you that can fight back the darkness when it comes for you.
It might be your sense of humor, or wit, or a quirk in your perspective that comes from a very honest and vulnerable place. This light can be the hardest to find and harness, but it is key to fighting off the darkness.
For me, this is my imagination. Whether I let myself day dream for a minute, rework a old myth into a new story, or just wander through some old memories, I find strength in the words and images arising from my unconscious mind. That is why the first thing that I struggle with in dark times is my ability to imagine.
When you find that unique thing inside you, learn how to harness it to make yourself stronger.
Find one thing that refuels you and makes you feel alive and do it for no less than 15 minutes.
I am going to give a private concert to my dog and cat, and to his chagrin my husband who is working out of the house today. What are you going to do?